After diner thoughts

[Hardlight]

Kevin stayed when everybody else got up after diner. He wanted to just chill and not be rushed to anything, it had been a hektick week and he was just in a head to do his own thing. He sorta hadto because Ian, and Niki and Gavin and Heather were all going out and Veronika was training and so would Chase be when he was done moppping up the floor. He wanted then to talk to Chase, but Nitcrawler was there and he did'nt have the right to intrerupt the punishment.

He felt bad for the funny Paragon team captain. It was a mess he had to cleen up but it was'nt even his and that was'nt all because he felt bad for him thinking he was in charge of the team when it was really Veronika. Kevin saw it from a diffarent perspecktive and did'nt want to say much but he knew if she wanted to be the one to take all the punnishments for her team she could claim her rule, but she was way to smart and let Chase do and think what he would. He was trying after all and Kevin thought how cute he was, but how tradjic too at the same time.

He got up after Chase had left. His favorite part of the night had been when he came to mop up under Kevin's feet and they said a few words. Kevin tried to let him know he was doing a very good job as team captin and not just on the floor, and how cool he thought he was. Veronika said flatary would get him places and he was trying to do like she sugesterd. As the floor dried his sneakers squeeked on the way out. He figgured he would go for a walk, or maybe a run if his food settled enougff, and cinse he didn't eat too much to keep his lean shape he knew he'd be running before long.

Heading away from the mantion the lite to his back he felt sorta alone, but real good about himself and his place there with his team and his friends. At this school he was sumbody that people liked and he could be himself without and big problems, he loved it at the academney. It was truely his home.

[Riff~Raff]

It was a long run that got Riker to get some of that added stress off. The rest of it would happen later on when he got Sky alone, or that Kat girl if Sky had some plans with Chase. He was very skeptical about how the intervention with Chupacabra went and it was a lot of added stress on him. Riker would always do what was best for his team, and it was difficult sometimes for him to control his temper in those regards. There was something about that kid that he didn't trust, especially to work or have anything to do with his team.

After the run, he dove into the lake to cool down from the run and swam for awhile before coming out and shaking himself off dry. He felt a bit better, but he knew he probably wouldn't feel better till he felt the sweet body of a woman under him and take out the last of the frustrations and pent up need for sexual release that came every spring since he turned thirteen. Riker stopped at the garage to pick up his pack of cigarettes from his hiding place and now walked along the path to get far away from school enough to light up.

"Ey' there Kev," he said cigarette in his mouth from behind the little blonde guy as he fiddled with the lighter. "What ye be up ta here on yer own?" Riker and Kevin weren't exactly all that close like they once were since they each had their own crowd, but they still hung out once in awhile or stopped to talk once in awhile. He didn't mind him despite not understanding his sexual preference. It was just simply unnatural to Riker, something never allowed in his pack. Plus he couldn't see how another bloke could even compare to a woman. He loved their soft bodies and silken smooth skin, their melodious voices and the pure sensuality of them. When he first eve heard of the possibility of being attracted to the same gender, he pondered it for a long time and wasn't able to comprehend it, so he dismissed it and went to go find Sky.

[Hardlight]

"Hey Riff-Raff!" Kevin loved his codename, he loved how it was real cute and it fit him so well. "I'm just out for a walk, might make it into a run if my food settles." He looked at him in the wainting light. He still really had feelings for the wolf boy.

There was more to it than wanting to touch his furry body and feel his silken ears as long and floppy as they were. He wished he could share his heart with him so he could knew what Kevin felt. He wanted to run and laugh with him in the sun and roll in the green grass and touch him and be tuoched by him. He almost lost himself in the fantsasty of them being together in the hapyness of a summer day in a clover field when he caught ahold of hisself.

It would be great to have Riker wrap him up in his thick muscledy arms, and to be able to rub his furr again. To feel the soft fluffynes of his tummy fur on his face, but Kevin stopped himself of the thoughts.That was not respectful of his friend, so he put it out of his head. He smiled at him and said "You know, everybody's doing something so I just decided to do my own thing. What brings you out tonight?"

He knew not to hit on him, Riker made it pretty clear he didn't get it about being gay and he was into girls so Kevin didn't want to make him uncunfterble. He started to think then that he might seem sort of rediculus to the wolf boy with all the makeup he had on. It wasn't too much but even a little bit might get a confusding look from Riff-Raff. But then he thought mabye, just mabye that it might be a thing that could get him some attention, even have Riker look at him in a diferent way.

[Riff~Raff]

TZZZPP[/b][/color] The flame popped out of the lighter and Riker lit his cigarette, taking a long drag as the tip of the cigarette blazed in an orange light. "Ahh that hits the spot right there," he said with a content sigh and let out a cloud of smoke. "I guess ya can say I be doin' me own thing as well. Went on a run an' a swim ta cool off an' now lighting up ta relax b'fore the wee tryst goin' on t'night." He took another drag and just walked next to the little guy, still lost in his own thoughts.

"Just need ta get some aggression out ya know? That bloody shite Chupacabra been gratin' on me last nerve. An' I really don't like that no one on me team feels safe wit' him," Riker said to the little guy they walked along, sorta venting out some stuff. He was cool and a good guy to talk to when he was pissed, so he didn't mind. Especially when he was really steamed about something like he was now. "I be bloody tired o' that fecker, an' I already talked it over with Jasper that if he not get his act togethe' then he needs ta be outta the pack. And ya know me Kev, I'll fight fer me team ta the end, it just somethin' I hoped I wouldn't have ta do."

He took another drag and glanced over at Kevin in the dim light, narrowing his eyes slightly. "Ya got some stuff on yer face mate. Did ya have a wee bit too much fun in Art Class?" he asked with a raised eyebrow and flicked his ash to the side of the path.

[Hardlight]

"Oh, uh no it's" he blushed at the fackt that Riker noticed even though he hopped he would it was still a little embarising and sorta exciting to, all in the same second "Um, it's makeup Riker. I just was trying a new thing, i dont know if- uh but I, uh -well, what do you think?"

Kevin knew he liked it some but he did'nt want to say that, he wanted to hear what Riker had to say really for real, without tanteing it at all. It was fun to put it on with Veronika and Heather and even with kRis in the room if he ever was cool like he sometimes was. Not going on and on about how much he wanted to be with him. Kevin liked the company of the other 'girls' when he wasn't with Ian and working out, he was sorta trying out a lot of difarent things right now and he was having so much fun.

When he was with Ian he was tuffer and more of a guy. He liked to feel like a guy, lifting weights and sweating and working out was fun when he was with his big buddy. When Niki came into the picture it changded the dinamic and Kevin took a sort of a relaxed stantce of being there and not saying too much because Niki was quick to cut with her words. He liked to feel like a tuff guy and Niki made the team tuffer in her way and he liked her style. In his own way he was a little like her not taking crap, but he stood up for what was right and he stood up to her sometimes too.

It was hard to tell if she liked him or liked him more or mabye less when he stood up to her or less. Niki was dificult to get a read on and he was prety sure she liked him, and was actually mabye even proud of him when he stood up to her, even though she did'nt like to be spoken to with disrespect. But because Kevin never disrespected her she put up with it and Ian and him and Haven got along pretty good together. The more people who got together in a group thow the less Kevin would stick out. He remembered how he turned people off when he used to talk and take things to much to heart, so he learned and he remanied himself and proud, but he tried not to get upset if sombody said something he thoguht was rude about him being gay. Most time he had been to sensitive anyway and it was'nt even about that.

He hoped Riker did'nt hate the makeup and was'nt going to say it was too gay. That would just break his heart. He wanted something he knew wouldn't happen, in his heart he wished but his mind knew the truth, and even knowing it he did'nt want to believe it. He knew his dream the one where Riker would want to try and kiss him in the light of the moon. Then as it came out from behind a cloud was it not for real? I couldn't be, but he still felt his breath catch in his cheast as he saw how incerdibly gorgus Riker looked in all of his wolfy hotness. "I know another way to get out agression." He raised his eyebrows in a way to ask with his expershion 'you want to know?'

"But for all he is Riker you cant give up on him. It is not good right now, ok true. BUT-" He shrugged up his shoulders a little and said "Does that mean you quit on him?" A look of almost a kind of sadness came into his eyes then. "You are a real cool guy you know? I wouldn't ever expect you to quit on somebody. We don't get to pick our teams, we just have to do our best with the teams we got and if it takes us out of our cumfort zone to include sombody then, I guess if we are cool enough we do it." He suddenly realized what Niki was doing in class by being nice to Katana. Like a lightbulb turned on in his head.

"Yeah, come on we all have a Chuparcarba to deal with in a way. Mines named Leah and she dresses like a dockworker, smells like one too sometimes." He stuck his toungue out and held his nose. "So what do you think of my makeup any way?" oh my god should I ask him if he wants to kiss me? mabye to see if it tatses good on my lips? Kevin's breath was noticably excited. "You um, wanna uh-?" his voice was hardly a whisper and it trailed off into silents, he did'nt want to do to Riff-Raff what Hemlok always did to him. He only smiled a little embaresdly and blushed.

[Riff~Raff]

Riker looked at him sideways with a raised eyebrow and took another drag of his smoke. "Ain't that the gunk that some o' the lassies wear? No point fer it, I dun care fer it period on a lass let alone on a lad. The loveliest lass in the world wouldn't have a stitch o' makeup in me world," he said in the blunt manner that he always did and not giving it a second thought on what it may mean to Kevin. For all he knew it was some weird phase that the guy was going through or it was part of the gay culture or something. He was not that familiar with human customs as of yet and with all that he had seen he was generally on the mind wave that anything is possible in the human world.

Though now as he thought about it, a bit of makeup here and there on the girls wasn't all that bad, so much so that he decided to voice his opinion on that as well. "I will admit, on some lassies that makeup stuff dun look horrible. Ye saw the new girl Kat? I gotta admit she dun look bad wit' all that black coal stuff 'round her eyes. And I think Veronika wears some too, but it a wee bit harder ta tell. Eh nice as it may look on some lassies, all in all I don't like it. Only thing I like is when Sky wear that lip stuff she gave me a taste o' earlier. Tasted like candy or somethin', but it was bloody delicious," he said with a big grin on his face as he thought of the small sample he got from those amazing lips of hers earlier. "That I think is the only extra stuff on her face Sky eve' wore an' I bloody love it. Now ya got me thinkin' lad on the lassies in this place that don't wear that junk an' look lovely beyond me words," Riker said to Kevin, taking another pull of his cigarette while he thought about it.

"Well Sky be me best example, an' well... heh now that I think 'bout it, lots o' lassies wear that junk. Ah yea wait Aideen don't, an' she's the prettiest thing I eve' had the pleasure o' layin' me eyes on. That right there prove me point like nothin' else could," he said with a satisfied smile on his face that he got his thoughts out. With Kevin being so insistent on his opinion that got the wheels in his head turning.

At this point, Riker was a bit more relaxed and not as tense as before. "Ah Kev, yer a good lad. Ya bring the lovely lassies inta me mind an' now I feel better 'bout the Runt. I may not be happy wit' him, but he is gonna learn one way or anothe'. I'm done workin' on him, especially after he not only attacked me twin, she also be a member o' his own team. For now, he ain't gettin' anythin' from the team till he proves he's worthy o' it. Nothin' else left to say on that." He tossed aside his burned up cigarette and took another one out to light up. "Ah well, the night be young Kevin lad, an' I know by the end o' it I'll feel a wee bit bette'. 'Specially that Sky promised me another taste o' that lip stuff frem those delicious lips o' hers," Riker said with a big smirk on his face now.

[Hardlight]

Yea, oh duhhh that was a dumm thig Kev, he is totallt into girls.You know that you stupid little fag. Aww man, this sucks. I hate beening so hard on myself, I'm not stupid I'm just - sorta a little in love. Kevin thougt when his heart broke just a little more that Riker didn't care for his looking all pretty and then showed him how he was so very into the ladys with his words and atittude. "Oh? Oh okay so you and Sky hum? I was thinking it was Sky and Chase. What's up with him?" He looked away then because he was'nt sure how Riker would take his question. It was pretty obvious at least thats what Kevin thought. "I mean, uh, like is he like cool and all. I know he's funny as hell, but somtime he gets out of control, I like him sorta and all the crazynes too, but do you?"

Kevin tried to add more to his question but it just sounded like it was just added on. "But you have been having some fun now that you broke up with Shimer I see." he thought he might throw a little disrtracshun in to see if he could throw the born tracker 'off the scent'. "You know, I see a lot of stuff and all. I just, uh- well, I sorta envy the girls. You know?" he sigh'd a little sigh. "Oh how could you know, sorry guy. I just uh-" his heart was hurting, but he did'nt want to make Riker feel funny and have him leeve because he wanted him to be near, but he hated that he could'nt touch him or be touched by him.

"So how is Larui anyway. I heard about it hapening, but she did'nt look too beat up. He did, so I guess he did'nt learned a lesson because you say he's still being a jerk huh?" Kevin's concern of his friend and her condishun was independunt from his yerning for her brother. Riker was too much a person he was holding feelings for, he could'nt understand why even still knowing all he knew why his heart felt as it did. He just smiled a little and let himself enjoy the walk with 'his' Riff-Raff.

[Riff~Raff]

Flicking the finished cigarette, Riker grinned despite of himself as he thought of his scrappy twin sister. "Aye, it'll take more than some bleedin' tomato pickin' Bori to take her down. She's already up and runnin' an' by tomorrow she'll have barely a scratch on her. She's a tough one, an' I be proud ta call her family," he said with a slight smirk and took out one of the cigarettes behind his ear to light up again. He had picked up smoking again since he came to the school and now had a rolling supply of them. For once, the lighter lit after the first flame and he lit the cigarette quickly before the wind blew it out.

"Sky and me have always been havin' fun lad, tis nothin' more serious than that. Her and Chase I think may be a bit more regular only for the fact that I dun see him havin' that same kinda fun with Lian or anyone else. Many o' the lassies tend to piss him off I noticed 'cept Sky. Plus she's a good bit of fun an' Chase probably be the only bloke other than meself o' course that could keep up wit' her," Riker said with a laugh and took a long pull of his cigarette. He was one for a casual thing with the lassies, but he had his standards and tastes. Some he'd never touch and one or two he'd never touch again.

Riker let out a cloud of smoke and looked at Kevin with a raised eyebrow and a weird look on his face. "Why the bloody hell would ya wanna be a lass? Yes they be bloody amazin' but I dun think I would enjoy em as much if I didn't have the parts that get the most pleasure out of em." That was possibly one of the strangest statements he'd ever heard and it didn't comprehend in his mind anymore than a guy being attracted to other guys did.

[Hardlight]

The tenshun that Kevin felt imediatley bubbled away as he laughed at Riker's exapserated remark. "Ha Ha haa! You silly, I did'nt say I want to be a girl. You really don't get me at all, do ya? It's cute, but-" He clasped Riff-Raff around his arm. It was strong and sinewey like a fierce animal should be. "I said I envy the girls, not that I want to be one- there is a diffarence. I like being a boy, I just wish I could find a boy to, uh" he let his hand drop off of Riker's arm "Well, you know."

He thought about it for a second. If it would be any easier to be a girl or not. He decided that it might be but that he was pretty sure he liked himself a whole lot and that wasn't the problem. His big thing was finding sombody to love him or at least to want to be with him, and it had to be sombody Kevin wanted to be with that way too. He knew Riker would bring up Kris. People always brought up Kris when it came to this topic. Kris was fine and there was nothing wrong with him except for maybe a little bit of flameboyints.

"Yeah, I guess the face paint is throwing people off a little. Maybe I'll just use it spareingly." Kevin said wiping his lips across his arm and leaving himself looking a bit smeared. "The eyes, I cant do without soapy water so you'll have to live with it. It's just a little mascarah anyways. But really, no I like being a guy" he took a second or two and asid "at least I think I do. I never really thoght about changing sex's til now. Thanks for confusing me." he rolled his eyes and grinned giglingishly.

"Yea I noticed, you know, about Sky. She's is a wild one. Who could miss that, but I guess it takes all kindsa vegutabls to make vegtabul soup. This is a little melting pot ya know like all simmering and stuff." He moved his little hands to show the stew he was talking about in a pot all bubaling and stuff around and all and got his body into it too. "I was gonna go for a run, I would invite you but you look like you'r enjoying those cigaretts a little bit huh- their not real good for you ya know." He would hate it if some cancery thing happened to Riker and he never said anything about it. He did'nt know that mutants are prety much imuned to cancer and things that regular humans get all the time, but he cared about Riker and his health.

He tried not to show that it bothered him about Chase. He thought he had seened somthign in him that was a little bit more what he thoguht was a kinda gaydar signalalert. Kevin was prety bad with knowing who was and was'nt gay for a long time and now this made him figure he still could'nt tell that good at all. "Um, it's just cause I care and all cause I already lost one friend. So I'm not trying to be a asshole about it. I just want my friends to be around for a long happy life. OKAY?" His fourhead and eyebrowds went up as he asked Riff-Raff if he got his meaning. He finully had friends here at the Acadmey and he really did'nt want to lose any more- Guardian was almost too much lost for his little heart.

[Riff~Raff]

Riker waved his comments off and blew out a puff of smoke. "We all die anyways, an' I'll be damned if I live a long life an' be miserable cause I can't bloody do what I want. I'll much rather live a shorter life an' die with a cigarette in me hand an' a lass on me- oh bloody hell," he said with a cigarette dropped from behind his ear. He picked it up and put it back behind his ear. He had never been sick a day in his life and he knew it would take more than a cigarette to slow him down.

"I'll neve' understand what ya want a bloke fer Kevin. Ya hang around some truly lovely lassies an' ya still want a bloke. I said it once an' I'll say it again, tis make no sense. Ya people are too damn complicated. Back at home when I lived wit' me pack, it was all very straight forward. If ya don't hunt, ya dun get food, and males mate wit' females. Non o' this codswallop o' lassies matin' wit' other lassies an' blokes matin' with blokes, or blokes becomin' lassies an' vice versa. Tis all unnatural an' make no bloody sense. I'll take the wild life any bloody day," Riker said, not comprehending any of the human customs and exceptions. "An' they call me bloody uncivilized. I at least know that ta mate properly ya need a male and female," he muttered and took a pull of his cigarette.

"No offence Kev, I jus' dun bloody get it. It been explained ta me a good bloody amount o' times an' it still make no bloody sense," Riker added so he wouldn't get a whole speech how he was insensitive and all that bullshit. "Hey if I be stoppin' ya frem a run, go right ahead. I already had me run an' I jus' be passin' time an' waitin' for tonight." Riker nodded his head to let him know he can go if he wanted. He was a social animal, but was just as comfortable spending time alone as with other people.

[Hardlight]

"You somtimes don't have a choice in life, ya know? Like being a mutant?- or having a twin sister?" he shruged not knowing just how to say it since he had tried lots of lots of times. "I just am like I am and that's how I have to be. I dont think it would work for me to be with a girl, I want what they want, you already know that. The raeson why is somthing I try not to dig into too much, that reelly dose'nt matter when you think about it."

"It's just how I feel the best. I tried you know, well not reelly too much, with a girl back home but it did'nt seem right. I was holding her like how a man is aposta hold his love and I realized that night that I wanted to be held. Held by a man, not be holding a girl. It was like I knew it all the time but I tried to do what I guess the world says is right. Look I dont know why I am like this but it is natural because it's just how I am, I would never chose this because well, think about it, it's hard to be gay- no body understans you." He kept walking along aside his heart's disire, there was no way he would go for a run and leave the side of his Riff-Raff.

"You know though that there are gay animals and also animals that change there sex. Mabey not in your pack but in the world theres lots of things and its only people that have predjudists, so mabey you are more human than you know." he smiled at Riker as they walked on some more and the moon lit their way. "I'm alright I cant run just yet cause my belly is kinda full still, an besides then I wont be near you and you know you are prety cool." Kevin nodded at that.

"I bet you alraedy know it too and you just are all chill about it, which makes you even more cool. I have a good time talking to you so, well I need to run but not just yet, later- you wanna run with me when I go? Or do you have other plans? I know you and the others hang out somtimes, and I guess cause I was always with Lorilei that you guys all thought I could'nt hang." It was true that he could hang out in almost any group or clik because he was friends with so many kids at the school. "Least not while I was with her, I know what kinda rep she had, and how she turned on her 'pack' and in your eyes I bet she is far from cool, but shes just a girl with a broken heart" he shruged his shoulders "and just incase you were wundering I dont hang out with her anymore anyways. I'm giving her her space, she needs to find herself I think."

[Riff~Raff]

Riker shrugged slightly and let out the smoke through his nose. "Abandonin' yer pack is not somethin' that should be taken lightly lad. Chupacabra turned his back on me own pack, an' look at him now. Lorelai may have her reasons for leavin' the Acolytes, but unless somethin' deeper happened than what everyone already knows, there be no excuse. Tis a sign o' weakness ta abandon yer pack when things are a wee bit tough," he said in a matter-of-fact voice. He was pretty good friends with Lorelai, though they didn't cross paths as much as they once did. Riker didn't get her issue though, she only dated Ian for about three days and she took it extremely hard for such a short time. The way he saw it, you can't even call a three day relationship a real relationship. That was just a fun weekend with extra benefits.

"I dun know lad, but she's not gonna have it easy now. Me best mates are Paragons an' I know them well enough. She don't fit in on that team, not by background or attitude, an' they'll all know it. There be no room for a lass like her on that team, an' she'll realize it soon enough." Riker glanced at Kevin and smiled sympathetically. "She'll realize it soon enough lad, don't worry. I doubt ya lost her."

Flicking the ash to the side, he took another drag and walked calmly. "But anyways tonight be a bonfire night. A couple o' us are sneakin' out ta the woods tonight. All o' us need ta unwind an' let go, plus welcome the new lad and lassie properly." A sly smirk came on Riker's face. "An' I plan ta welcome that new lass Kat properly. Since I saw her covered in honey the other day I decided I'd have a taste meself." It took a moment for Riker to shake himself out of his little day dream. "An' you lad? Yer gonna spend the night in' Veronika's room again?"

[Hardlight]

"I dont know actully cause Kris has been hanging out there to and he gets a little tooo much for me sometimes." Kevin grimiced his face just a touch. "I was tired from working out the other night and Veronika and Heather and Kris were all talking and i kinda curled up on her soft fluffy cumpforter just to close my eyes for like a second and recharge my battary for the rest of the night and when I opened my up my eyes a couple a minutes later Kris was staring at me and licking his lips. It was kinda creepy." He thought back on it and he had the strangest feeling of distrust for Helmock then.

"I don't get him. I know what he wants but I am not into guys like him and what I don't get is -what is he expecting from ME??" Kevin schruged his shoulders and blinked a couple of times. "I don't mean to get to personal and I dont want to cunfuse you either but -not that I want to be a girl- but in the whole, uh- you know" he moved his hands uncertaintly for a momeunt until he took his finger and slid it into the hole he made with his finger and thum on his other hand "uh, sex thing- well, I would be the girl in that part right? Just incase you did'nt already know that one" He smiled "I know- duhh- but the thing is that Kris would be to. At leest I think he's a bottom to like me. Oh a 'bottom'? Thats the term for that, the 'being the girl part'. Um, not pitching, but catching? You get it?"

He took a minute to check and make sure that he didn't totully freak Riker's mind out. "Sorry Riff, not to be crude. You know I'm not that, but just to explaned it all for you." He walked silently for a few steps judgeing Riff-raffs mood and how he handled what was said. "Sorry. Was that too much? Somtimes I overshare. So I don't know if I'm gonna go to Veronika's room. I guess there's gonna be a lots of people at the bonfire. Sounds like a good time."

"Not many from your pack though? That seems a little odd if you ask me. You are hanging out with your friends but not your pack, shouldn't at least a couple of them be invited? I woulda thouht your pack was your friends. Maybe that was why Lorlaie quit on us, because she thought her pack wasnt her friends." he cunsidered things for a second about Frotsbite and desided that Riker was right about her, Kevin had known it that she was a quiter, and Riker cunfirmded it. "The thing was she did'nt want to be our friend anymore, not mine and I almost begged her to stay, she wanted to quit because of her pride I think. It had to be that, because like you said she only dated Ian for a couple of days. Oh man you shoulda herd her go on and on about it. She lost herself in grief and she has'nt been the same since. I miss the old Loralei, but she needs to learn on her own the hard way I guess."

[Riff~Raff]

"Jus' cause I dun spend all me free time wit' me pack, don't mean that I dun care fer 'em or would do anythin' fer 'em," Riker said slightly sharply. He was very careful with his team and he took a lot of pains to make sure that they all had close ties. "The New Mutants aren' like the Acolytes lad, or the Paragons even. We gone beyond bein' a team, we be a Pack. That's closer than family lad. Families fall apart an' sometimes yer left on yer own an' abandoned. The pack ain't nothin' like that. Through thick or thin, we will always be there fer each other. Jus' cause we dun do everything togethe' it dun change that." Not many people understood exactly what the team's relationship was outside of the team. Riker didn't care, the important thing was that all his pack knew it and he never let them down.

He didn't want to linger on the topic about Kris and whatever unnatural thing the two had going on, but Kevin looked insistent on it. "And erm... as fer Kris... well... Aw hell lad I dunno, he's not a horrible lad, frem what I remember he can hold his own well in a fight, so I wouldn' call 'im a Nancy boy, but... aw hell I dunno Kev, this is bloody weird. I dun normally talk 'bout what a lad does wit' anothe' lad unless tis be playin' pool or somethin'." It wasn't that he was uncomfortable, he just didn't know what the hell to say. Jasper and him could talk about girls for hours on end, but that was cause they both were into them, but they never touched this subject.

Riker turned the corner on the path that led back to the school. "I dunno Kevin, but anyways who needs a bloody relationship. They jus' a pain in the ass. Sure if ya like the person t'wont be so bad to be wit' just one person, but ya better really like them. I dun care fer only one person I like ta have me pick. That's the way ta do it I say. An' that's how I bloody will do it tonight." The smirk was right back on his face then at the thoughts of the upcoming night. "I plan ta get shitfaced an' spend the night wit' the soft warm body o' one of the lovely lasses."

[Hardlight]

"I guess cause I never had a relationship with a guy, well I never had one with a girl either, but since I never had one I think I might want to see what it's like?" He screwd up his nose and mouth a little not suer if he was really wanting a boyfriend after the remark that Riff-Raff made. The idea of it was real nice, but then he thought about what Riker said and he let his mind wonder. Bad things could happen, yea but they happen any ways, violints and heart brakes and lots of crying- oh but that is the worst of it. If I think of the best of it then its a diferent picture all together- I better lissen he's tellin this from his heart.

"So you say relatiomships are not as good as they look in the movies and TV huh?" He rubbed his finger under his nose and cunsidered the advise. "Well, I wouldn't doubt your word, you have never steared me wrong before. Mabey I should try what you say, who knows right?" He thought of it and besides Kris and Chase he didn't think anybody else might go for him, and he was not even really sure about Chase afrter what Riker had said.

"Well, I'll work on it at least. I kinda wanted my first time to be special and all, but" he kinda laughed a little "why should I be any diferent than any body else? From what I hear not tto many people had a kind or a even painlesed first time. I wonder how come people even try it again after that?" he smiled. "Can I ask ya Riker?" he looked at him kindly and without expectations "What was your first time like? Did you love her?"