Time to be Alone

[Riff~Raff]

After Riker had taken his shower and dawned some fresh clothing he walked down to the Lake to sit by himself. He needed some time to think and not be disturbed. Since everyone was still training, it looked like it would be okay, at least a while. He let out a deep sigh before sitting cross-legged on the bank of the shore. He stuck his hand in the water. It was pretty cold, but it wasn't horrible. He'd swum in colder water.

"Lurai, what are you doing? Why are you doing this? Is it because of Shimmer? Should I stop, should I focus only on you? What should I do? Am I not acting brotherly?" he asked himself out loud. "What is going on in your head?" He let his hair fall in his face his eyes falling to the ground. His ears drooped and his tail stopped wagging. "What am I going to do?" he asked himself feeling the water come to his eyes. "Do I even belong here? Does anything I do even matter anymore? My sister almost died. Lurai almost died. I just" he mumbled as little droplets of water fell from his face.

"I...I....I don't know....I don't....know why I'm even here anymore."

[Riff~Raff]

He stood up letting out a frustrated growl. "Why am I here?" he asked himself again kicking a stone at his feet, shouting slightly as to express his anger and frustration a little more. "This is ridiculous, truly ridiculous, I don't even know why we came here. Lurai could have easily trained back in Ireland and she would have never been in that situation and I would have just been content with a nice little parallel between wolves and humans. I could have been the observer, just sitting back and doing what I was born to do, take care of my sister."

"What simple thoughts, that I could actually live normally, have a normal life, read poetry all day, not have to worry about Lurai. Raoul was right. I am just to blissfully happy for my own good. Lurai was right. I'm blind, but now I shall wake up, I will train, both my mind and my body for better use. No more of this foolish love and literature based in fantasy" he said taking a deep breath. "To a new future, for the both of us."

He looked across the lake his head falling down once more. "I'm sorry Torri."

[Riff~Raff]

Riker looked down at his feet once more before kicking a stone into the water. It was best that he started getting back. He could read some back in his dorm and maybe actually finish a book. Then he could train a little more later if he felt up to it and then get to bed early. A good nights sleep is really all he needed anyways. He let out a deep sigh before turning around and walking back towards the school. He would take the long way around going past the hedge maze and in through the atrium, that way he could avoid people as much as he wanted.